Tomorrow I have an early morning appointment at the RE to check on my follicles and their progress. I have been doing Follistim 100iu injections since Wednesday night. The injections have been burning a bit more than last time but it’s not unbearable. What I have noticed is that the side effects are back. I am exhausted virtually all of the time. I’ve only managed to work out once while on the injections. I sleep and sleep but am still exhausted. And it’s not like I’m not getting good sleep-I am getting great sleep but it just never feels like enough. I am also concerned because I have been feeling dehydrated for the past 2 days even though I am drinking 80 ounces or more of water/juice/Gatorade (mostly water). Last time the dehydration was one of the first signs that I had mild ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome. I’m hoping that I am not developing OHSS but if I am, oh well. I keep telling myself that it will all be worth it in the end.
I am much calmer this time around. I have begun using EFT and I’ve been listening to Circle+Bloom’s free download. The nights that I listen to it, I have no issues going to sleep or staying asleep. I’ve been keeping myself optimistic this cycle which has helped me so much. I’ve not had a single full on breakdown yet, even since starting the injectibles 🙂 I still have negative thoughts that come into my head but I acknowledge them and then put them away. The whole mindset change has not only helped me, it’s helped my marriage. I know that P appreciates that I am not an emotional wreck this time around.
This cycle seems to be moving so slowly, much more slowly than the other cycles. I am only on CD10 yet I feel like I should already be in the 2ww. Even though I am followed by an RE, I am still taking my BBT each morning (it’s way more stable this month since I’m back on Metformin, Femara and Follistim) and I will start using OPKs today. I like to have some control over what’s going on and I want to make sure that I know everything possible about my body and what’s going on. Don’t get me wrong, I trust my RE and the nurses-they are truly wonderful-but I want to feel empowered and informed in this process. Knowledge is power 🙂
So that’s where we are, waiting for the 2ww. Should be having the IUI on Thursday or Friday of this week. P’s birthday is this week so I am taking that as a good sign. A BFP would be the best birthday present ever for him.