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I Am Loved

P has left for a year-ish. He will be overseas fighting in this MF’ing war. I am so proud of him and what he does for a living but this will damn sure be the most difficult year of my life so far. I love that man and cannot wait to kiss him again. He’s texted and called all day to check on me. He’s going to war yet he’s checking on ME who is sitting at home in my comfy house. *sigh* The bestest man, for real.

Through my Twitter, FB, Army wife message board, deployment blog (if you want that link, email me at TTC_Queen@yahoo.com) and cell phone, I have felt tremendous love and support today. Not that I haven’t felt the support before, I have, but today it was amazing. When I was blubbering in the wee hours hours of the morning, my Twitter friends (from across the world) wrapped their virtual arms around me in love. My all time BFF texted with me from Chicago until she could no longer stay awake. I got loving text messages from Twitter friends and local Army wife friends, all letting me know that I was loved and that I can do this. My BFF here more than forgave me for skipping out on Zumba (I didn’t fall asleep until after sunrise) and her cooking me breakfast. My FB friends have left the most amazing supportive messages and wall postings. My Army wife message board friends have been amazing. I’ve gotten emails and texts from my family all day.

The only way that I am coping as well as I am is because of my family and friends and their love. I’ve managed to shower, go to WalMart, eat and clean some of the house today. I haven’t spent the entire day in tears. I’ve thought about all the goals I can achieve while he’s gone (not that I couldn’t achieve them with him here, but I need to focus on the positive). I’ve laughed. I’ve cried at the love I’ve received. I’ve been supremely touched that people that I’ve never met in real life care so much about me, about P and about all the troops that are deployed. As an Army wife it seriously makes me feel all warm and gooey inside.



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MilSpouse Friday Fill-In

1. Tell us about your dream job… one that you could do regardless of pay.
I would LOVE to own an animal rescue, out in the coutry where there would be plenty of room for playing and lounging in the sun.

2. What is your most prized material possession (kids and pets don’t count!)?
There are 3 πŸ™‚ A necklace that my oldest brother had made for me before he deployed, a jade necklace that my middle (older) brother gave to me and my engagement ring.

3. What has been your favorite duty station and why?
It’s a tie between HAAF in Savannah and Ft. Carson, CO (where we are now). I loved Savannah for so many reasons-the history, tons of things to do, close to the beach, great shopping and the sheer beauty of it. I love Colorado Springs too-the mountains, plenty to do and see, 4 seasons and snow πŸ™‚

4.What is your least favorite household chore?
Folding and putting away dishes. I DESPISE IT.

5.If you could give one piece of advice to a teenager today (not specifically a MilTeen), what would it be?
Don’t get a credit card until you can pay it off in full every month. Learned that lesson the hard way.


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MilSpouse Friday Fill-In

Thank you Wife of a Sailor for coming up with this!

This week’s questions are:

1. How did you and your spouse/significant other meet?
I picked him up in a bar πŸ™‚

2. What is the best thing about being a MilSpouse?
To me there are so many great things about being a MilSpouse. I love getting to move to different places and experience different parts of the country. Another perk to the moving is that I have met friends that I never would have met if I wasn’t a MilSpouse.

3. What is the hardest thing about being a MilSpouse?
I think the hardest thing is the lack of communication (especially for submarines) and the constant worry. But the good BY FAR outweigh the bad.

4. What is your favorite dish?
It depends on my mood. Overall I am a huge fan of Mexican food and could literally eat chips and salsa every single day. I also love fresh seafood and local fish. A good fish and chips rocks my world when served with a good beer and let’s not forget my love of buffalo wings.

5. If you could change one thing in this world, what would it be?
I wish that people would appreciate and protect the environment to a greater degree than what’s currently being done. Protectly the environment and finding alternative energy sources would help improve quality of life for all of Earth’s inhabitants.

Ok, now it’s your turn πŸ™‚ If you’re a MilSpouse (that includes significant others) take part in this wonderful thing that Wife of a Sailor has started.

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Goals, goals, goals

Mentally I am back in a good place. I have found a workout that is perfect for getting me acclimated to running again and I enjoy it. The eating less meat and more fruits, veggies and non-meat protein is easier than I thought and P is on board with it πŸ™‚ We’ve eaten vegetarian for 4 days now and enjoyed it. Hopefully this new eating and increasing my exercise are the keys to getting me back to the size I was when P met me…really my goal is to look like Jennifer Garner in Alias but I’ll settle for the old me.

In the TTC realm, we are going to proceed with IVF as soon as possible because *drumroll please* my work insurance will cover it!!!! Yep, we get $15k in medical expenses related to infertility AND $15k in prescription coverage for infertility treatment πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ My coverage begins May 1st so I will be calling an RE that day to set up an appointment as soon as possible. I am not naive enough to believe 100% that it will work the first time, but if it doesn’t we will hopefully have a few embryos left to do FET. We are quite excited and relieved about this and it has totally changed my apprehension about IVF. One of my main concerns was paying so much money out of pocket, it would have seriously hurt us financially to do that. Now we will at least be able to do one with the insurance….never even thought that would be a possibility.

We are now in the pre-deployment stage. No, I won’t give any more of a timeline than that due to OPSEC. If you don’t know about OPSEC, please refer to the new page that I’ve added to my blog. Back to the subject of goals, I am already making goals for myself while P is deployed. I am thinking of 90 days goals-small enough blocks of time for me to tackle but big enough that they will chip away the time in bigger pieces. My first goal (if I’m not pregnant) is to complete P90X, kind of. I will do the weight workouts but will substitute running for the cardio workouts. Oddly, running hurts my knees less than the Plyo workout from P90X. My next goal (again, if I’m not pregnant), will be to complete the Insanity workout. Yeah, that’s only a 60 day workout but it would be a big accomplishment. Those 2 goals alone would almost get me through half the deployment πŸ™‚ Other goals include paying off credit cards, a loan and start an IRA and possibly getting Ranger certified as a therapy dog. I also have some house goals in mind as far as decorating but I’ll have to work out those details after seeing what we can do before he leaves.

The day that he told me for sure what unit he was going to and that he was definitely deploying, I cried. Since then I’ve been more determined to just make our time together fun. Should we really be spending $80 a weekend on dinner and drinks at restaurants? Probably not but we are. We are also going to movies, going to parks and exploring our new city. What we’re not doing-worrying about unpacking boxes of things that we don’t regularly use, stressing about money (we’ve already done the math-deployment pay will help a lot financially) and fighting over stupid things. This will be our first long deployment. His last deployment was short, only a few months. In a weird way, I am ready for this. I almost think that it’s a rite of passage for me as an Army wife.

So, for the next year+ my life will be a series of goals. Goals that I will actively work towards achieving and that I will keep track of here. I expect you, my lovely readers, will keep my accountable in this πŸ™‚


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Will I Ever Breathe Again?

*A quick run down of my past couple of weeks: Moved over 1000 in a Tahoe with 4 dogs, 2 cats and P. Wound up in the ER with a bad UTI. FIL came for a 7 day visit less than a week after we moved. Got so sick, thought that I had H1N1. Called in sick to my job on my first day. Bought a 42″ LCD TV. Bought a (used) Chevy Silverado for P. Ate at BWW way too many times. Went to Whole Foods way too many times and loved it.

My allergies are in high gear right now. I am sneezing, coughing and my sinuses are constantly clogged. Every time I blow my nose there is blood 😦 I am doing a saline sinus rinse daily but I am seriously ready for my body to adjust to my new environment. I was so sick last weekend that I spent all day Friday in bed with a fever. Saturday I medicated myself and stupidly went with P and FIL to Pike’s Peak. We drove up to mile 15 (it’s 19 miles but the last 4 were closed due to snow or something) and I thought I was gonna die. My chest hurt and I couldn’t breathe well in that altitude. Taking a deep breath hurt. When we got home I crashed. Woke up Sunday morning with a fever of 101 and was convinced that I had H1N1. I was supposed to start work on Monday but instead spent time at the doctor’s office. Diagnosis, respiratory infection brought on by altitude sickness. Tweeters, remember that nausea I had during the 2ww? Yeah, it was altitude sickness. Apparently it’s quite common here when people move from a different climate. The doctor gave me some meds and I am thankfully doing much better now.

Us at mile 15 at Pike's Peak

On the way down

I want to say a special thanks for all of the kind comments after my BFN. This one was the hardest in a long time. I am doing better and am back on the TTC rollercoaster. This month we will be trying on our own but we have both started taking FertilAid. I was charting my BBT but my dogs chewed up my thermometer and I’ve had trouble finding another one. Hopefully I’ll be able to find one today so that I can start temping again tomorrow.

There is a huge positive that happened to me this week. I learned that my job has 3 insurance plans that cover infertility treatment, including IVF! I emailed the HR benefits person and should be hearing back from her tomorrow regarding cost, how to sign up and if there is a pre-existing condition clause. If we can get this, it would cover $15,000 in infertility testing and treatment. I don’t need any major testing done (it’s all been done) so we’re looking at being able to use all of it for IVF. I am being cautiously happy about this. I just feel like it’s a dream and I’m gonna wake up to find out it’s not true. This would be an answer to our prayers. I realize that if we do this, there’s no guarantee that IVF would work the first time but at least we would (hopefully) have snowbabies to use for an FET cycle.

Tomorrow I will be starting the Couch to 5k program. I will probably add on to the workout with daily yoga and ab work every other day. I have 15 lbs that need to go. I am sick of looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I used to run regularly and I loved it! I am currently doing some research, trying to find races in the area so that I have a firm goal to reach. I would eventually like to do a half marathon and a sprint triathlon πŸ™‚ I know that I have it in me, I just have to start training again like I used to when I lived in AL.

I am in love with Whole Foods. Seriously, in love. I love everything about that store and plan to buy produce, seafood and meat only at Whole Foods. I cannot explain how wonderful it is to finally have healthy, organic choices after living in Louisiana for 2 years. It’s amazing. We’ve gone there 3 times already and will be making another trip there today πŸ™‚

I love Colorado, in spite of the allergies and altitude sickness. I feel at home here. I never felt that way in Louisiana but I felt that way in Savannah. It’s great to feel that way again. Once my allergies are under control I promise to go out and take wonderful pictures to share with y’all πŸ™‚


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We are here and I am fat

I am blogging from my iphone because I am too tired to get up and get my lap top :-p

We made it to Colorado Springs last night and I love it! I love the mountains, the parks, the restaurants and everything I’ve seen so far. I can’t wait to explore the city even more! We’re limited to what we can do right now because we still have the UHaul and are staying in a hotel (thank God for LaQuinta) until we get the house on Thursday.

We took the dogs to The Garden of the Gods today and hiked/walked for a good hour or more. The dogs loved it (so did we-plan to rock climb here) but it’s apparent that they have regressed in their behaviors due to lack of socialization. They got super excited when they saw other dogs and reacted negatively when smaller dogs growled at them. There weren’t many dog friendly places at our last post so for the past 2 years they didn’t get the opportunity to socialize with other strange dogs. Before that post, we lived in Savannah and they were well socialized (well Chloe, Ranger & Malibu were-Bear wasn’t born yet) because we took them out all the time to parks and on walks downtown. I know that it will take time and patience but I got very frustrated today. The next time that we take them out, I will be wearing the treat pouch and bribe them to get them to behave. Surprisingly the one that did the best was Malibu, our fearful dog. She virtually ignored the other dogs and people too. The one that did the worst was Bear, the coonhound mix. He has a strong prey drive and sees those smaller dogs as prey. I’ll be doing lots of research to find ways to get that under control.

Hiking today made me realize how out of shape and fat I am. Yes, I’m fat. Yeah, I know that some of it is due to the fertility meds but some of it is me. I haven’t been this big since my second year of college. I’ve developed 2 plans to get back into shape-one for if I get a BFP and one for if I get a BFN. Both plans involve daily green smoothies. The BFP plan involves walking and yoga. The BFN plan involves running, weights and rock climbing. Of course I am hoping that I will be doing lots of walking and yoga πŸ˜‰ My BFN weight loss goal is 20 pounds. My BFP goal is to develop more muscle πŸ™‚

P will also be losing weight over the next couple of months. He is talking about doing a cleanse before he reports to his new unit. After the cleanse, he wants to incorporate green smoothies into his diet and we will both be trying to go vegetarian. There are lots of reasons that we want to try vegetarianism and one of them is general health. I definitely plan to blog about our experience with it.

For now I am going to get to know my new city and surroundings. I feel like moving here is a new start for me and for us. I feel really alive again and it feels great.


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2 more sleeps

Two more sleeps, then we leave this hellhole and move to Colorado! To say that I’m excited is an understatement. I’ll miss my friends and our RE but moving to Colorado is a dream for me. I simply can’t wait. Mountains, Starbucks, West Elm, shopping, hiking, camping, fishing-I cant’t fucking wait.


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