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Apparently my best thinking is done at concerts

Last night while jumping up and down to the second opening band before Flogging Molly, I had a realization. I posted it on Twitter late last night and received wonderful support, so I am sharing it here too.

Right now, I am glad that I don’t have a baby. With ___ months before P leaves for a year, I am glad that I am the only one (other than the furbabies) vying for his attention. I love that we are both off work today, slept in and cuddled each other knowing that we have no one to take care of other than ourselves. We’ll get to spend the whole day together doing grown up things like swimming, going to an Indian restaurant and watching movies. There’s no spit up to clean up, cloth diapers to wash or poopy diapers to change. For once I know without a doubt that I won’t cry if AF shows up (I am NOT testing this month).

Now, it’s not that I’ve all of a sudden decided that I don’t want children; it’s just that this time is so precious that I want to focus on making memories to carry us both through the next year. We are still going to talk to CCRM and I still want to do an IVF cycle before he leaves but now, that’s not the most important thing. We can freeze swimmers and try while he’s gone if we need. Right now the most important thing to us is exploring our new city and state as much as possible before he’s gone for a year. I love him so much that I don’t want to waste a single day in a hormonal meltdown right now. I don’t him to have those memories when he’s gone-I want him to have fun memories like last night.

About last night…we saw Flogging Molly play at The Fillmore Auditorium in Denver. The venue and the show was beyond amazing. Oxfam and Planned Parenthood had booths there AND there was even fucking recycling cans in the venue! The drinks were overpriced but strong and the staff was amazing. The sheer beauty of the Fillmore Auditorium struck me. We will definitely be going back there for more concerts.

There were 2 opening bands-Saint Alvia, a great band from Canada and Riverboat Gamblers, a great punk band from TX. The crowd was awesome-moshing, jumping up and down and crowd surfing. Then of course Flogging Molly played. AMAZING does not even describe them. I had never even heard of them until I met P and I am so glad that he introduced me to their music and to Irish rock in general. Their talent, energy and interaction with the crowd was awesome. I seriously cannot even put into words how great they were last night. They even dedicated a song to all the U.S. troops in the audience and thanked them for doing their jobs ❤ P has wanted to see them for a long time and he smiled throughout the entire show. All the money that we paid for food, drinks, tickets and t-shirts was worth seeing him so happy.

We also met a very nice, cool, younger couple while we were standing in line to get it and we ended up hanging out with them during the show. The girl, S, was 27, 36 weeks pregnant and rockin' red pigtails, skinny jeans and cute black heels. When they first stood behind us in line I was all "FML, preg gal right behind me" but as the night wore on I stopped feeling that way. They were so cute in love, nice and hip. They also have a 3 year old daughter named Kiwi-I love that name for a little girl 🙂 S was exactly how I hope to be a pregnant gal-hip and still living life. I mean, how many 36 weeks pregnant women would wear 4 inch heels to a standing room punk rock show and not complain at all?! They're also from the Springs area so hopefully we will run into them again. Kicking myself for not getting their numbers last night.

Oh, I almost forgot about dinner before the show! We ate at The Cheeky Monk which is a Belgian beer cafe. I am a beer snob-can no longer stomach even the smell of Miller Lite-so I was thrilled to be at a place that offered only good beers. I had a Blanche de Bruxelles with fish and chips (best fish and chips ever) and P had a Carlsberg Lager with a french dip and fries. I so wish that The Cheeky Monk had a location in the Springs because we would definitely go there a lot. The bar itself was beautiful and clean, as was the entire restaurant. The have a monthly 4 course beer dinners-for $40 per person you get a 4 course dinner with a different beer paired with each course. That is quite possibly heaven on earth for me.

I am in a good peaceful place right now. It feels great.

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Will I Ever Breathe Again?

*A quick run down of my past couple of weeks: Moved over 1000 in a Tahoe with 4 dogs, 2 cats and P. Wound up in the ER with a bad UTI. FIL came for a 7 day visit less than a week after we moved. Got so sick, thought that I had H1N1. Called in sick to my job on my first day. Bought a 42″ LCD TV. Bought a (used) Chevy Silverado for P. Ate at BWW way too many times. Went to Whole Foods way too many times and loved it.

My allergies are in high gear right now. I am sneezing, coughing and my sinuses are constantly clogged. Every time I blow my nose there is blood 😦 I am doing a saline sinus rinse daily but I am seriously ready for my body to adjust to my new environment. I was so sick last weekend that I spent all day Friday in bed with a fever. Saturday I medicated myself and stupidly went with P and FIL to Pike’s Peak. We drove up to mile 15 (it’s 19 miles but the last 4 were closed due to snow or something) and I thought I was gonna die. My chest hurt and I couldn’t breathe well in that altitude. Taking a deep breath hurt. When we got home I crashed. Woke up Sunday morning with a fever of 101 and was convinced that I had H1N1. I was supposed to start work on Monday but instead spent time at the doctor’s office. Diagnosis, respiratory infection brought on by altitude sickness. Tweeters, remember that nausea I had during the 2ww? Yeah, it was altitude sickness. Apparently it’s quite common here when people move from a different climate. The doctor gave me some meds and I am thankfully doing much better now.

Us at mile 15 at Pike's Peak


On the way down

I want to say a special thanks for all of the kind comments after my BFN. This one was the hardest in a long time. I am doing better and am back on the TTC rollercoaster. This month we will be trying on our own but we have both started taking FertilAid. I was charting my BBT but my dogs chewed up my thermometer and I’ve had trouble finding another one. Hopefully I’ll be able to find one today so that I can start temping again tomorrow.

There is a huge positive that happened to me this week. I learned that my job has 3 insurance plans that cover infertility treatment, including IVF! I emailed the HR benefits person and should be hearing back from her tomorrow regarding cost, how to sign up and if there is a pre-existing condition clause. If we can get this, it would cover $15,000 in infertility testing and treatment. I don’t need any major testing done (it’s all been done) so we’re looking at being able to use all of it for IVF. I am being cautiously happy about this. I just feel like it’s a dream and I’m gonna wake up to find out it’s not true. This would be an answer to our prayers. I realize that if we do this, there’s no guarantee that IVF would work the first time but at least we would (hopefully) have snowbabies to use for an FET cycle.

Tomorrow I will be starting the Couch to 5k program. I will probably add on to the workout with daily yoga and ab work every other day. I have 15 lbs that need to go. I am sick of looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I used to run regularly and I loved it! I am currently doing some research, trying to find races in the area so that I have a firm goal to reach. I would eventually like to do a half marathon and a sprint triathlon 🙂 I know that I have it in me, I just have to start training again like I used to when I lived in AL.

I am in love with Whole Foods. Seriously, in love. I love everything about that store and plan to buy produce, seafood and meat only at Whole Foods. I cannot explain how wonderful it is to finally have healthy, organic choices after living in Louisiana for 2 years. It’s amazing. We’ve gone there 3 times already and will be making another trip there today 🙂

I love Colorado, in spite of the allergies and altitude sickness. I feel at home here. I never felt that way in Louisiana but I felt that way in Savannah. It’s great to feel that way again. Once my allergies are under control I promise to go out and take wonderful pictures to share with y’all 🙂

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2 more sleeps

Two more sleeps, then we leave this hellhole and move to Colorado! To say that I’m excited is an understatement. I’ll miss my friends and our RE but moving to Colorado is a dream for me. I simply can’t wait. Mountains, Starbucks, West Elm, shopping, hiking, camping, fishing-I cant’t fucking wait.

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