Last night while jumping up and down to the second opening band before Flogging Molly, I had a realization. I posted it on Twitter late last night and received wonderful support, so I am sharing it here too.
Right now, I am glad that I don’t have a baby. With ___ months before P leaves for a year, I am glad that I am the only one (other than the furbabies) vying for his attention. I love that we are both off work today, slept in and cuddled each other knowing that we have no one to take care of other than ourselves. We’ll get to spend the whole day together doing grown up things like swimming, going to an Indian restaurant and watching movies. There’s no spit up to clean up, cloth diapers to wash or poopy diapers to change. For once I know without a doubt that I won’t cry if AF shows up (I am NOT testing this month).
Now, it’s not that I’ve all of a sudden decided that I don’t want children; it’s just that this time is so precious that I want to focus on making memories to carry us both through the next year. We are still going to talk to CCRM and I still want to do an IVF cycle before he leaves but now, that’s not the most important thing. We can freeze swimmers and try while he’s gone if we need. Right now the most important thing to us is exploring our new city and state as much as possible before he’s gone for a year. I love him so much that I don’t want to waste a single day in a hormonal meltdown right now. I don’t him to have those memories when he’s gone-I want him to have fun memories like last night.
About last night…we saw Flogging Molly play at The Fillmore Auditorium in Denver. The venue and the show was beyond amazing. Oxfam and Planned Parenthood had booths there AND there was even fucking recycling cans in the venue! The drinks were overpriced but strong and the staff was amazing. The sheer beauty of the Fillmore Auditorium struck me. We will definitely be going back there for more concerts.
There were 2 opening bands-Saint Alvia, a great band from Canada and Riverboat Gamblers, a great punk band from TX. The crowd was awesome-moshing, jumping up and down and crowd surfing. Then of course Flogging Molly played. AMAZING does not even describe them. I had never even heard of them until I met P and I am so glad that he introduced me to their music and to Irish rock in general. Their talent, energy and interaction with the crowd was awesome. I seriously cannot even put into words how great they were last night. They even dedicated a song to all the U.S. troops in the audience and thanked them for doing their jobs ❤ P has wanted to see them for a long time and he smiled throughout the entire show. All the money that we paid for food, drinks, tickets and t-shirts was worth seeing him so happy.
We also met a very nice, cool, younger couple while we were standing in line to get it and we ended up hanging out with them during the show. The girl, S, was 27, 36 weeks pregnant and rockin' red pigtails, skinny jeans and cute black heels. When they first stood behind us in line I was all "FML, preg gal right behind me" but as the night wore on I stopped feeling that way. They were so cute in love, nice and hip. They also have a 3 year old daughter named Kiwi-I love that name for a little girl 🙂 S was exactly how I hope to be a pregnant gal-hip and still living life. I mean, how many 36 weeks pregnant women would wear 4 inch heels to a standing room punk rock show and not complain at all?! They're also from the Springs area so hopefully we will run into them again. Kicking myself for not getting their numbers last night.
Oh, I almost forgot about dinner before the show! We ate at The Cheeky Monk which is a Belgian beer cafe. I am a beer snob-can no longer stomach even the smell of Miller Lite-so I was thrilled to be at a place that offered only good beers. I had a Blanche de Bruxelles with fish and chips (best fish and chips ever) and P had a Carlsberg Lager with a french dip and fries. I so wish that The Cheeky Monk had a location in the Springs because we would definitely go there a lot. The bar itself was beautiful and clean, as was the entire restaurant. The have a monthly 4 course beer dinners-for $40 per person you get a 4 course dinner with a different beer paired with each course. That is quite possibly heaven on earth for me.
I am in a good peaceful place right now. It feels great.